Where is the Love? πŸŒŽ

Did you ever wish to reverse your life? Like, being a kid again and your only problem was the monsters under your bed or how will you convince your mom to buy the toys in the mall? Or how to fake your sleep?. Hmmmm,I wonder. πŸ€”
In my 17 years of existence, I have lots of questions waiting to be answered. This past few months I’ve heard about terrorist attacks, bombing, killing, etc. that made me think of a song, titled “Where is the love?”. It’s sad to admit that I am scared. Scared of tomorrow, scared of the night, scared of people around me. Just by hearing the everyday news made me paranoid. We all know what was lacking in this world. Love. Love is the key to stop all this. Love is the key to peace. Love is the answer. Every night, before I go to sleep I kept thinking about the “why’s”. Really, What is going on, people?!. Come on! Wake up! Don’t ruin the world ’cause the future generation needs it, and they deserved it!. Maybe….. We should stopped thinking the “why’s”, maybe….. We should start thinking about the “how’s”. HOW CAN WE SAVE THIS WORLD?. HOW CAN WE STOP THESE BULLSHITS?. Come on, people! Where is the LOVE?? 
—girl not so in love.


RETREAT πŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ»


Sometimes, I wish I can go back in time, not to correct things, but just to live some moments twice. January 20, 2016, I Have no idea that God is cooking something good for me and that experience can change everything . yes, Im excited because for the first time in my life I finally got a chance to experience a Retreat, but I didn’t expect it to be like something magical. My three days in Tagaytay was like three days in heaven. I’ve been close to someone I thought I’d ever have a chance to. I slept with my friends, We ate together in the huge dining hall, we cry and laugh every session, we took photos, we crept in the hall, we had a nice bonding, we tried to forget the problems here in our town and most importantly we got a chance to bond with God. We got all pretty excited in our first day.I put my clothes in the cabinet, I put my things in the table, I checked the shower, I helped my friend to unpacked her things. I remember the time when I was arranging my things in the cabinet and thought that the day after tomorrow, I’m going to put it back again and face what’s waiting for me in my own town. I learned to savor each moment because I know deep down it’s temporary. Our first session, I have to admit that its a little bit boring but the fact that the speaker is speaking in front and trying his best to deal with us even though we felt like sleeping , made the day extra special. In the evening we had a role playing and I can say that it really made my day. I realized that many of us have sense of humor. That same night we go back to our own room to finally rest, we bid our goodnights and prayed to God to stopped the ticking clock because from that moment I realized that I fell in love with the place and the way we treated each other that day. Second day morning, we ate our breakfast together and the foods are pretty delicious, that’s the one thing i missed in Marello. I learned a lot that day especially from the stories that Father shared to us. I remember the story about the boy who have one arm, from that,I learned that I can do all things with God, nothing is impossible if you really believe. There are things in life that is not meant for you, but sometimes, what was losing doesn’t actually really matter.At night, we broke into tears. We read the letters from our loved ones, and suddenly it felt like the whole world had stopped and I can only hear is the sobbing. I cried that night because the letter is from my superwoman. Ever since, I salute my mother for being tough and strong,and she is indeed indestructible. She said there that I need to be stong and learn to do things on my own and keep studying smarter not harder and the time will come I will be unequivocally successful. After reading the letters, we shared something about us, about the love we received from our family. The sharing took my breath away and the realization hit me. We always have that one door in our lives that’s not meant to open for everybody, but we really considered each other as a family so we let that one door opened. We opened up not to impress, not to beg for sympathy, but to learn, to take the lessons, to inspire and to realize that, everybody is facing a battle,has a story of heartache,you are never alone. if they can smile out of all the problems, so do you and always be kind. After the session I found myself collapsed in bed and thanking God for another wonderful chance he gave to us. Last day, I woke up early and put my things inside my bag and sighed. I want more, I want to stay. Half of me wants to stay there forever and part of me wants to go home to see my family. We had a successful mass in the morning, we took photos, a proof that once in our life everything was perfect. We had our last meal in Marello and the bus arrived, taking us back to reality. I can say that our retreat was successful. The tenuous relationship turned vigorous.Sitting in the lobby and watching the others laughing and giggling about something made me realized  that maybe, really really good times aren’t meant to last for too long, that’s what makes them more special, the temporariness of them. Another amazing experience has ended, that completed a few chapters in my book that will surely haunt me for the rest of my life.


Junior High SchoolπŸ™ŽπŸ»

Hi guys!!!

I want to share what I wrote last year before my moving up ceremony for Junior high school. πŸ™πŸ»πŸŽ‰

Being a high school student is like riding in a roller coaster, it has ups and downs, thrilling and exciting, but the most important, you’d learn that you can survive in every obstacle, just take a deep breath and enjoy the ride. Columban college is my second home, the people there is my second family and they will always have a special place in my heart. Ever since my junior high school started, I learned to do things on my own, I learned to savor each moment because I know deep down everything is temporary, I learned to interact with others, I learned to be selfless and the most important thing is I learned to love myself. During my junior hs,like other teenagers I experienced to loved by someone I didn’t love back, and I’ve been in loved with someone that didn’t love me back and I guess that’s life, we just need to accept that we dont always get what we want, I’ve been close to someone I thought I’d ever have a chance to. I will not forget the lessons that gave me knowledge, the teachers who guided us from the beginning , my classmates who made my junior hs extra special , my friends who’s always there when I forget to love myself. Fighting inside the classroom is inevitable, but what matter is, we learned from our mistakes, and ended up forgiving each other because that’s the real essence of being as one family. During my junior high I tried new things, I learned to go with the flow, and I learned to appreciate little things.I became a girl who’s not afraid to fail,and not afraid to be alone. I began to realize what I want, what I deserve and I began to trust people less. Time flies so fast, just few steps and I’m finally done in my junior high, maybe after so many years I will look back and remember the memories that will warm me in the inside but will also tear me apart. Every person I met in school made me realized that everyone is facing a battle, has a story of heartache, I am never alone pretending that my life is real fine. Everyday is like a never ending cycle inside and outside of the school, its funny how I thought that everything is all the same everyday, but when I looked  back everything was different. This chapter of my book will inevitably end, but the memories will live forever in my heart. 

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